Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Hard Times


See this photo?  This is part of our backyard.  My husband does a beautiful job. We have many raised beds that we have filled with vegetables.  The roses are special Fourth of July roses that we bought when we got married four years ago.  The incessant rain this year has been very difficult because I have been longing to spend the summer outside in our backyard. We got Noodlebug a sandbox and some other outdoor toys. We bought a dining set so we can eat outside. We dream of all the vegetables we will harvest this summer and fall.

All of that may be over.  My husband lost his job yesterday. We rent our house from his [former] boss and I don't know if he is going to kick us out. It is hard enough to worry about losing a job.  We were just making ends meet and I honestly don't know how we are going to pay our bills. What is so much worse is the prospect of losing our home. We moved into this house when we came home from our honeymoon. I brought Noodlebug to this house from the hospital. I always thought when we left this place it would be to move into a house of our own.  Now, I don't know what will happen to us.  The idea of losing our home and never getting to harvest all the vegetables that my husband so lovingly planted.  The thought of leaving Noodlebug's room that my husband painted a month before the baby was born. The thought of saying goodbye to our neighbors and the trees that we love to watch as we sit in the backyard. 

I can't bear it.

I know I need to "hand it over" to God. I know I need to have faith that we are going to be okay. We still have my job even though we lost 60% of our income yesterday. We are all on my health insurance so we still have that. But to be without our home is unbearable. It's just too much.  I'm scared and I'm heartbroken.

Please send prayer and good thoughts.

9 comments:

Cheryl~ZanyMayd said...

Oh Amy, I am So Sorry for This Situation ~ I will be saying Lots of Prayers for You.... Do You Have a LEASE? I would think if you had a lease that you would have till the end of the lease (but having the Money to pay the rent, I understand is another problem) I hope Your Hubby is at the Unemployment office today, or I know here in Michigan, the best way is to file online ~ the sooner you get the paper work rolling, the better.... I wish you Silver Linings in the Stormy Skies ~ Veggies Roasting from Your Harvest & many hours for Noodlebug to be playing with His Play Toys, Outside.... I will continue to keep You & Your Sweet Family in My Thoughts & Prayers ~ God has Plans for You, We just need to Have some Peace, Faith & Follow!
Lots of Hugs
xox
cheryl

Amy said...

Thank you, Cheryl. That means so much to me!!!

-Amy

Sarah B. B. said...

Oh, Amy! I literally had to read this twice because I couldn't believe it. Lots of prayers headed your way. I'm short on advice for this situation, but I know y'all will find yourselves where you're meant to be. Big hugs to all of you.

Alison said...

Oh Amy so sorry to hear. We had the same thing happen nearly 2 years ago and being older it was so difficult for my husband to get another job. There were many, many difficult months but somehow we scraped through. Hope that things go ok for you all
Alison

Mary Isabella and Kiley too! said...

Please know you are in my thoughts and I am praying for you. My the Lord fill you with his love....m..

Nikella said...

Oh, I am so sorry you have to go through this! I hope things are looking up for you soon - you will be in my thoughts!

kelly said...

you are in my prayers!

Queenly Things said...

I hate the lemon inundation part, you know, the time before you just have to get down and start squeezing to make lemonade.
Hugs.

HippieDog said...

I'm so sorry sweetheart :( You guys are in my prayers. Things always have a way of turning around and I do believe there is a reason for everything....big hugs! xo