Monday, August 29, 2011

Homeless

Hello Friends.

It has been an emotional week.  I came home last week to a "Notice to Vacate" on my front door. We have lived in our beloved rental home for five years.  I came to this house as a bride and it is the only home Noodlebug has ever known.  It was my hope and dream that when I left this house it would be to move into a home of my own. That is not to be. Our landlord has decided to move a family member into the house instead. We have to be out by mid-October.  Adding this to the fact that my husband still doesn't have a job after over a year makes everything that much harder. 

I started packing and looking at rentals this weekend.  The rentals market isn't great because so many former homeowners are flooding it due to foreclosures.  I am a nester.  I don't need a big fancy home but do need a nice clean space for my family to live in. The rentals I saw (in our price range) this weekend made me cry. They smelled like smoke, had old dingy carpet, ancient appliances and sketchy neighborhoods.  I was told I couldn't even paint any of the rooms to make them feel a little less institutional.  It was depressing.

I'm really struggling right now to remain positive. I am trying to remind myself of my many blessings.  I still have a job with benefits. We still have our health and people who care about us. Those are very big blessings.  I haven't forgotten. But I'm having trouble holding it together. Especially when I am surrounded by the memories of everything that took place in our current house. When I look into the backyard at my husband's beautiful vegetable garden and realize that someone else will reap the benefits.  When I realize we will have to say goodbye to our wonderful neighbors.  It's very hard and there is a lot of grief along with the uncertainty about what will happen to us.  All I can do is keep packing and hoping that we'll find a new home soon.


This song has been running through my head lately:

7 comments:

KnittingReader said...

I'm so sorry, Amy. I know how much you love your house. You will be in my prayers.

Heidi said...

Amy, I admire your desire to stay positive, as difficult as it is. I'll keep you and your precious family in prayer.
Hugs, Heidi

Sarah B. B. said...

Oh, AMY! I am so sick to read this. Prayers for you and your family, and faith that you'll land in just the right place. On a practical note,around here, some realtors do a lot of rental *stuff* on the side - maybe someone could recommend a decent realtor who would have new suggestions for you?
Big, huge, enormous hugs.

HippieDog said...

So sorry Amy :(

If you ever need to talk, text, anything, just let me know. Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers always!

Michelle

Mary Isabella and Kiley too! said...

And the Lord said, I will be with you always!! Dear sweet Amy the Lord will see you through, he is carrying you are in this your time of need. I am praying!!! It will be better...hugs...m...

Nikella said...

I am sorry this happened! Hopefully you will find a new home soon. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Jenny said...

Oh Amy! I just came by to read up a little bit and saw these posts. I'm so sorry that you're going through this! I'm glad to see that you have been able to remember that God is in control and that He will take care of you. I know it's hard though. I'll be praying for you. XO