On Monday, I will be registering Noodlebug for Kindergarten. This is such a frightening and confusing process. We are trying to transfer to a school out of our district and I am keeping my fingers crossed that we will get the school of our choice. In my heart of hearts, I would love to homeschool him. But, as the main breadwinner, I don't have a choice about whether or not I can be a stay-at-home mom. Sometimes, I will have to settle for "good enough" rather than "best." I just have to trust that I am doing the best I can.
In my mind's eye, I have a clear picture of what I would like my life to be. There are parts of that dream that may be achievable someday. There are other parts that I am trying to figure out how to let go of. Like the fact that I must soon comes to terms with the reality that I will not get that second child I dream of. There is a lot of grief surrounding this realization. But I am so glad that God allowed me the blessing of having Noodlebug. All is well.